Amnesia

If you don't believe in GOD I have all the proof you need. The fact that people have more than one kid is proof enough. No sane rational person will willingly put themselves through the sleepless nights, dirty diapers, gas etc a second time if not for GOD. Not to mention women who give birth to more than one. They most be crazy to have forgotten the pain of delivery. You honestly forget about all of the bad and if you don't you idealize it. If that is not the work of a higher power I don't know what is.
Honestly though our knew foster child wonderful. ( When and if he is adopted I will share photos and his name. Until then he is staying with us and I want to protect his confidentiality.) He is a normal new born he eats, sleeps and cries. I am so happy to look at him and also scared. I feel like we are living on borrowed time. There is a good chance we will be able to adopt but nothing is certain until the last T is crossed and the last i is dotted. What scares me most is the attachment Laylah is forming with him even now. I know that if he leaves it will be so much harder on her. I just keep telling myself if it is meant to be it will be. I have prayed every night that it is meant to be though.
Enough sadness he is doing fine. Robbyn told me today he is eating well and being a good kid today. He is back to his birth weight and his cry has gone from a mild squeak to a powerful yell. We have our first planning meeting tomorrow and we will meet his first mom. We will see how that goes